Monday I watched my roommate's movie and it's too touching. I cried because I do not possess that kind of love that handsome boy gave to that cute girl. Although it's only a movie I still feel so lost. I desire that kind of love and I just feel a desire for a relationship recently. I have to keep my promise however. It's so tough. When will my Big Day come...?
I love to read Bible; a lot of verses could let me burst into tears about God's great love. But I still need it in physical sense... Or I still feel kind of lackness and lostness... Wish I could become happy soon.
Last night I dreamt about Zhangyu; she robbed my love(not zilong) and I felt so sad. Recently I always dreamt about BGR and it's not healthy for me to think about such things anymore... maybe I should do something to free myself from thinking it...
My job is quite relax after the mission conference anyway. Church work are like that. sometimes you wear out and sometime you relax to die. Maybe I should do a summary of mission conference so next time life will be easier in a busy season. that means what to prepare, what to ask in advance, the list of work for me to finish one by one etc.
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